3:04am

Ok, I'm sitting in front of my laptop at 3:04am, coughing up a lung, tired, frustrated, eyes hurting, trying to be present in this "ordinary" moment of life.

It ain't working.

I just want to sleep. I just want to lay down and not cough. Just for a few hours. And I'm sure my wife would appreciate that as well. And the kids. And the dog. She stirred a little in her crate as I came downstairs, as if to say, "Don't come down here! I heard you loud and clear when you were up there!"

The neighbor's light just came on...I hope I didn't wake them...

I guess I'll try again to sleep...maybe it's back to the recliner...